Sorry to have met you

Day by day
I sit here contemplating
I guess THEY were RIGHT
And our love wasn't meant to be

I guess I always blamed you,
And as of now I always will.
I overlooked it once or twice
Because I thought we were IT.
But obviously it doesn't matter
And the jokes on me.

It really doesnt matter
Cuz in the end I'm the stupid one.
who sacrificed and Lost myself
Lesson learned the hard way I guess
But Thank you for teaching me
Never to let emotions get the best of me.

I was wrong
But you ain't right.
And I wonder what it would be like
If you never walked in my life.
The Things I would have accomplished
The dream I would have achieved
It seems to me that every song I hear,
Makes me realize
IM SORRY TO HAVE MET YOU!!!!

Last song

With each passing day, I find it harder and harder to believe the timing of all this. Hopefully at the end of this week I'll figure out what he next step is. Anyways this is the last of the songs I've written. I still don't have a title for it. Leave a comment if you have any good ideas


Verse 1:

As the days go by
Faster than the clouds in the sky
I wonder why this happening
And how can this be?
As I hear your voice
Softly calling my name
I remember the way
That you kiss me
And....

Chorus:
I think I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling
Yeah I think I'm falling
Baby I'm falling for you

Verse 2:
I wanna tell you
That you're the one
I'm thinking of
But now I'm leaving
And it seems so unfair
Maybe one day
We'll be together
But...

Chorus:
I think I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling
Yeah I think I'm falling
Baby I'm falling for you

Verse 3:
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it is you.
Cuz

Chorus:
I think I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling
Yeah I think I'm falling
Baby I'm falling for you

Verse 4:
I remember that very first night
It was love at first sight
You've shown me how to be happy
And what life is all about
I hate that I'm leaving,
How can this be?
But baby....

Chorus:
I think I'm falling
Maybe I'm falling
Yeah I think I'm falling
Baby I'm falling for you

I think I'm falling....
Baby I'm falling for you.....

If only

Hey guys. Around June I drifted back to my high school days and started writing lyrics again :). None of that hardcore metallic headbashing stuff anymore, that's a phase I'm glad to say I'm over. It's more mellow and chill. Since I havent had the time to sit down and write anything, I decided for the next few blogs I will be posting lyrics to the songs I wrote. I can't sing to save my life, but Lemme know what you think.. "This one is entitled "if only"

Verse 1:

I found an old picture last night,
You had a smile on your face.
We seemed so happy back then. (back then)
I thought together we would conquer the world,
And nothing could stop us.
Now it has disappeared,
And I wish you were still here

Chorus:

If only for one last time
I wish I could put a smile on your face,
So my last memeory of seeing you,
Wouldn't be you walking away angrily.
If only for one last time
I wish I could hold you,
Just like it used to be.
If only for one last time
I wish I could kiss you,
Before you say goodbye.

Verse 2:

I wonder how you are doing.
Are you happy again?
Do you ever think of me
Or the good times we shared?
Am I just another memory that has faded away?
Now that it has disappered,
Do you regret being with me?

Chorus:

If only for one last time
I wish I could put a smile on your face,
So my last memeory of seeing you,
Wouldn't be you walking away angrily.
If only for one last time
I wish I could hold you,
Just like it used to be.
If only for one last time
I wish I could kiss you,
Before you say goodbye.

I can't even close my eyes to sleep at night(cuz ur on my mind.)
Counting all the days that have gone by,(Missing you more and more)
This is not the way it's suppose to be (no no no)
I never dreamed you would be with someone else.
It killing me slowly everyday.
I know I've been replaced,
Does he put a smile on your pretty face?
Has he cleared all your dark clouds
And made you happy again?

Chorus:

If only for one last time
I wish I could put a smile on your face,
So my last memeory of seeing you,
Wouldn't be you walking away angrily.
If only for one last time I wish I could hold you,
Just like it used to be.
If only for one last time
I wish I could kiss you,
Before you say goodbye.

Oooohhhhh If only for one last time....
If only for one last time....

Until I Return

This is a song I wrote for someone new in my life. I don't think I could ever bring myself to tell him how I really feel. The timing of all this just sucks. Thanks Uncle Sam, you fucking bastard. gggrrr...


Verse 1:

It's only been weeks since we've been acquainted, but it feels like I've known you forever. It's what I feel deep inside of my soul. And I really hate that I have to go. But you know I don't have much of a choice. I know how you must be feelin' right now... But baby just kiss me one last time... before I go...

Chorus:

It's hard to say goodbye to a love that just won't stay... hold them one last time before they slip away... what else can you do, but tell them how you feel and say I'll be missing you until the day you come back into my life... I've been hurting so bad for so long, you took that pain away and I'll be missing you until I return...

Verse 2:

I don't know why we didn't meet sooner, I guess that's just the way life goes... but who knows a couple years from now, we might meet in the future and reminisce on the past, I hope someday somehow we'll end up being together... (together) (together)

Bridge:

This is what I have to say... Don't let me go, don't say goodbye, don't say it's so... I need you in my life don't say we're through I'll be thinking of you... I'll be waiting till the day that we meet again. (meet again)

Chorus:

It's hard to say goodbye to a love that just won't stay... hold them one last time before they slip away... what else can you do, but tell them how you feel and say I'll be missing you until the day you come back into my life... I've been hurting so bad for so long, you took that pain away and I'll be missing you until I return...

Until I return...
Until I return..

ecstacy

take me downwith you.
into sleepless nights
and forbidden whispered places.
dream with me,
of sorrows yet untold
and secrets of the past.
I want you to know Me.
like never ever before.
and Ill scream with you
howl at the moon
and breathe incantations into the stars.
We'll be like gypsies but with no hearts.
Let me give you pain.
Like youve never imagined or even feltbefore
.And i'll whisper sweet nothings into the night
as you beg me to only keep going.
just a minute longer
i'll shower you with ecstasy
and you'll bury yourself with in me.
again.like we used to...like i need too...

we just happened

I wrote this while playing my guitar. Unfortunately I can't sing to save my life...

One drop comes from your eye, am I suppose to weep because you cry? Your wear your heart on your sleeve, and still you wonder why. You say I'm cold hearted and self destructive. Well don't worry cause we're done, never fixed, not even in your wildest dreams.

It was fun while it lasted, but I ain't gonna lie, this thing you call love, is nothing but a phase. There's only one who has my heart, unfortunatley it's not you. Your just another pawn in this game of chess, as I learn to forget her.

You're planning our future, but I don't see you in mine. I'm not looking for Mr. Right its Mr. RIGHT NOW. No promises of a happy future, or this is forever cause when it comes down to it, I'll break your heart any day of the week.

It was fun while it lasted, but I ain't gonna lie, this thing you call love, is nothing but a phase. There's only one who has my heart, unfortunatley it's not you. Your just another pawn in this game of chess, as I learn to forget her.


Why are you still crying asking how heartless can I be? Why are you trying to preserve the dead remains? Say your last words and discard your tears, cuz baby we weren't meant to be.. We just happened..

Yet Again

Love is a feeling made of complex emotions. Lust, caring, romance, and intimacy all play a major role in the state known as being "in love". It is part need, part want, and part uncertainty.

Another relationship down the drain. How is it I always find myself in these situations? It seems I continue not to only ruin relationships, but friendships as well. Sometimes, I wonder if I will ever be capable of loving someone genuinely before it's to late and I loose them forever.

My last attempt at commitment ended horribly and the month following it I found myself lonelier than ever. In many ways I am a creature of comfort and after having a person by my side, almost attached at the hip, it felt so different being alone. Even when I had people around me, I still felt like a piece of me was missing.

I guess it was unfair of me to jump into the relationship with **********. I knew I wasn't ready for another monogomous relationship. There were so many things going on with me emotionally that the security of having someone to call mine was comforting. The idea that she could easily get over me and find someone else urged me to do the same.

Some may say it's selfish but I really did believe that with enough time I would learn to love him. I'm not sad that the relationship is over, but I do feel horrible, because yet again I have a ruined another friendship. I think it's time I stop dating friends. Some lines are better left uncrossed.