Inner turmoil

Sitting, starring day and night,
Hoping that she appears,
She closes her eyes and tries to dream,
But tears get in her way,
The feeling is to strong to fight,
It's taking over here tonight.

It's stronger than she ever felt,
She wishes the inner turmoil would just come out,
She opens her eyes takes a deep breath and swallows,
Speaking only the truth she stands and she says,
I know what I want for the rest of my days,
But in life we rarely get what we want.

So she turns her head and walks away,
Tears glisten in her eyes,
Because she knows her chance went by,
Trying hard to turn the feelings off,
Inner turmoil strikes once more,
Then black laced the tears all slowly fall.

She doesn't want to let her go at all,
She understands,
She lost her chance,
And now her heart belongs to a man,
She takes the blow and walks away,
Knowing she will never forget that day.